Man driving is all good, but man karma got me back. My comp is the worst back seat driver ever, and let me tell you I have learned a lot of self control since I started to drive with her. It’s funny because I prayed to have a little humility, and I don’t think I will be doing that again any time soon (haha). She will tell me when to indicate, and well pretty much just tell me how to drive. Its been a tough pill to swallow but I haven’t blown up on her because I know she is just trying to help me drive on the left side of the road. It’s not her fault….she just doesn’t want to crash and/or wants to get to the right place. Who knew driving on the left side of the road would teach me humility and patience (haha). Man, they weren’t joking when they said a mission changes you 🙂
One thing I have been working on, is trying to find out who I am. When you come out here on a mission man you really have to find yourself, because you aren’t exactly who you were when you were back at home. You are still you, and I remember I was studying, trying to figure out why things just aren’t working out for me. Why everything is going the way it is going and I realized its because I am trying to be everyone but myself. I’m trying to be my companion, I am trying to be the elders, and I am trying to be all these different people, but I am not trying to be me. So I was sitting there and I thought who am I? Who is Savannah Vavla and what makes her different from all the billions of different people out there. After that I felt prompted to pull out my patriarchal blessing and write down every attribute.
So I found all these things but its definitely easier said then done becoming these things. I have a really long way to go, and it’s hard because I see all these things I can become and all these things that I know are inside. I just don’t know how to let it out, to let these things show, how to become Savannah Vavla. Hey, that’s were I need to have faith, just keep on working and keep on praying and I know I can find out who I am. Wow this mission is doing so much for me. Honestly, as a person, I think I have learned more about myself in the past few months then I have in the past 19 years. I was talking to Sister Inia and I told her I am grateful I am figuring all these things out now instead of when I get married because I am only with Sister Inia for a few months but I am with a husband for eternity (haha) so good things.
Sorry I haven’t been sending any pictures the internet cafe we come to has a virus in all the computers that wipe away all the pictures so I don’t want to get a virus on my camera and lose all my pictures! Super crazy week this week!
We had Chey’s baptism last Friday and then we had Uria’s on Thursday and then Pele’s next Saturday! Man the field is white already to harvest that’s for sure.
We were out, and we went up to this house and when we got up to the door we could hear through the window “The church people are here!” Haha and then Sister Inia looks at me and says loud enough so they could here, “Did you hear that sis the Church people are hear.” Haha oh man it was really hard not to just crack up right then and there but we held it in because they came to the door and told us they were busy. Then we went to another house and he told us to put him on his Do Not Disturb list so as we were walking to the car Sister Inia said, well Sis pull out your don’t disturb list and put him on there.” Haha man it was pretty funny, we had a nice laugh about those two.
It did make me take a step back. Honestly, I really just wish I could tell everyone that closes their door on us, how much they are missing out on the blessings they are depriving themselves of. Just how much the gospel would help their lives! However, I’ve learned that one of the hardest things to deal with out here is personal agency. It’s hard but hey its all good because we have those people that are improving and really making an effort to change.
We met this one lady Lizzanne she is really nice and super keen to know about the gospel. My companion and I have a really good feeling about her, the first time we sat down to talk with her she wanted to know about the 10 commandments because we told her by keeping the commandments we can be happy, and wow, she is really ready.
Ok, I can’t really remember anything else (haha). I really need to get better at writing in my journal, but I am just so tired at night, I just say my prayers and crash (haha).
Oh one other thing, Uria the girl we baptized, we found out that her mom and Sister Inia are related! Crazy stuff! If there is one thing I have learned out here is everyone is related one way or another! It’s cool though, because of this, the mom wants to start learning about the gospel!
Thanks for 19 years of love and support!